Spilling It

Hi everyone,

I am doing fine. Still trying to stay positive to everything.

Some of my husbands may think that is insane since I have the worst expectation to outcome as I can imagine. Well not that worst yet. But I have been running out of patience. I don’t know what is going on.

Things didn’t go the way I wanted, and I am not sure if it’s supposed to be like that (knowing that I am a god…however, useless since it doesn’t seem like I am doing anything).

I want to talk about being hopelessly relying on others in my thoughts. Hahah! I don’t want to be negative. It’s pure positive as I can make it.

I am struggling. It’s not good.


Albert Ellis says,

“The best years of your life are the ones in which you decide your problems are your own. You do not blame them on your mother, the ecology, or the president. You realize that you control your own destiny.”


You light up my world when you came into my world.

I thought my world had come to an end,

with nowhere to go.

I was living with horrible thoughts of myself.

And you make me see things differently.

I love you. And I want to spend

The rest of my life with you.

I want to thank you for getting me

Where I want to be.